scraps from my diary::
"I know you have been waiting for this .. I know you are excited...Rule on gal..life is waiting" .......16th December 2007
"I know you just cant wait..I know you are frustrated..keep patience gal...just a week to go" .........31st March 2009
17-12-07 was my first day at work ..Wipro Technologies
31-03-09 the day i have submitted my resignation
And yeah it was my work i was scribbling about in my diary...Sometimes,,no ,,manytimes i wonder if i really know what i want in life..do i actually have a passion?..am i serious in life?...firstly is it necessary to be serious in life?..am i careless?
Why people now and then tell me "life ante mazzakh kadhu pinky(my nickname) konchem seriousga undatam nerchuko"
True i never knw what i wanted i actually wanted in life..i mean i dont know wat ppl mean wen they say work satisfaction,as i have never experienced it,do not blame my job..blame me!
I have always wanted to be a teacher all my life ,,
and yeah also a politician,,also a designer,,also a copywriter,,and yeah a social worker,,an entrepreneur,,a proud owner of a pre-school,,a very successful software professional and how can i forget ,,,a preacher....
Now all these ambitions ,,passions,,have sprouted up in me during different seasons of my life..(no ,not the "climate change" seasons but my moodswing seasons) so in whichever season ppl asd me about my ambition i answered them accordingly..so far so good...but the sad part is my dad..who asks me every season and i give him a different option evrytime..and for this all that he has to say is ""dimmaag gitla kharaab iyindha,,life ni nuvvu mazzaak lekka theesukunte ,nuvvu mazzaaak iyyipothav andhariki""(no mood to translate)
But i dont understand one thing ya..if i have so many passions so many ambitions whats wrong,,why still ppl say, have an ambition have a passion..in today's world its always good to have many options..why take a risk focussing on one..take a chance at many na...
See,, among these i have tried my hand at teaching and testing at a software company..both have been disasters,,then tried designing,,a disaster again...And i am not at all disappointed..someday something will click and even if it wont,, big deal...atleast i followed my dreams..atleast 40 years later i wont sit in an old age home n think "IF ONLY I....." I am happy..very happy(touchwood)
wait a min..is this an excuse i am giving myself..am i really happy..will i ever be successful..were the three options that i tried have been disasters because of lack of seriousness.. am i giving up easily, thinking i have many options..is it because i am not focussing..40 years later will i sit in aold age home and think "IF ONLY I HAD FOCUS,IF ONLY I WAS SERIOUS i wud have seen success"
wait a min..did i just mess up my first blog..
dunnoo..:(
